it is true what they say about karma

today, i took an almost devilish delight in saying "i told you so." and even though i felt slightly shamed at directing such malice towards a child, i have to say that the little effer had it coming.

my student Derek, after months and months of me haranguing him to "get off the banister!", "get in the classroom!", "sit down!" or "control yr anger!" finally got what was coming to him.

today, after trying to derail class for a whole 30 minutes, making rude racist comments and being explicitly rude when i was giving instruction, ran out during his detention and screamed "CHINESE HOOKER!!" while trying to steal my clipboard.

later, Derek comes to get my signature for a change of schedule (deliverance!), and again defied my directions to go directly to his next class, deciding to play in the hallway (on the banister, of course) and fight with another kid, TJ. when i went in the hall to break things up and bring TJ inside, Derek turned to run away, and fell down the stairs.

i can't say i lol'd, but i didn't feel sorry for him either. maybe now he'll learn to finally stay away from the fuckin stairs.

karma: it's a bitch.

THE FUCK?!!!

48 hours before senior project is due: i'm sitting at my desk, listening to music and working on my paper. i have 10 documents open at once, maybe 3 applications. i'm pressing F9, which on a mac, lets you zoom out and look at everything at once, so you can find your bearings.

i zoomed out and it wouldn't zoom back.

i heard gears spinning, the clicking of some hardwear trying to find its place, a fan doing its best to keep the system from overheating.

3 hours later and my harddrive would be pronounced dead on arrival. when the guy at the apple store plugged it in to try some diagnostic tests, he said he couldn't even detect a harddrive on there.

now i have a useless piece of empty computer, which will cost close to $2K to recover the data from. and i don't know if my external harddrive got fried in the process too. i'm just hoping i made it away from this with just a small piece of my music collection still intact on that external...

i feel like the Universe's bitch right now. what did i do???!! i keep wondering why my karma is so for shit these days. maybe i hit a squirrel with my car and didn't know, in which case i'd like to formally issue my apology: i'm very sorry, it was nuthin personal, i actually love squirrels very much, if i could, i'd adopt the dead squirrel's family and let them live in my home.

just pleeeeaaaase, stop it with the bad karma!

less than 24 hours to go, and i am in some deep shit.

-stephanie