"Fire is motion / Work is repetition / This is my document / We are all all we've done / We are all all we've done / We are all all we've done / We are all all defenses."

- Cap'N Jazz, "Oh Messy Life," Analphabetapolothology

Saturday, February 02, 2008

it's a saturday and it's sunny and even tho it's cold, i'm feeling cheerful.

the smoke from the neighboring coal plant is casting huge swift shadows on the nature theatre outside my window and it's making everything feel sped up like in a movie.

i don't know why i'd never noticed before, but the white tree beside my window (perhaps a birch?) is a popular hang-out for flocks of these little brown and green speckled birds, and i was delighted this morning when i looked up and saw a bunch of them hopping around on the branches, sitting real close to each other, cuddling but being silent. i like having a tree so close. sometimes when i look up and see only tree and sky, i can pretend i'm living in a house amid clouds. i wonder if L.A. has birch trees and little speckled birds... (perhaps palmettos and seagulls instead?)


i've been sleeping in and sleeping well. i haven't taken the time to appreciate how wonderfully comfy and cozy my bed could be, but i lay down last night after a fairly long week and just felt so happy to sink my head into fluffy pillows and sheets. sometimes i get homesick late at night, and the smell of laundry reminds me of home and i feel safe.

i've been thinking lately about how much time i spend in front of the computer, or the TV (eventho i don't watch it, it seems to always be on around me!), or just listening to music or the radio. even in the past week, i've watched nearly a movie every other day (i told myself i'd try brushing up again on my film history, and since i didn't get to fit a film studies class into my schedule this year, i'm deciding to do an unofficial independent study). but i've reached the conclusion that i'm constantly over-stimulated! i never even had an email account until i came to college! i didn't get a cell phone until i started driving, which was when i turned 17 and started working at the State Hospital, a mental health institution on the edge of town. now, i check email practically every hour of every day, my computer's always on (i don't even turn it off to sleep any more) and when i'm not physically at the computer, the music is blasting or the TV is turned to CNN so i can watch the presidential debates.

well, today i woke up and brushed my teeth, ate a blueberry muffin and drank some herbal tea, all in the silence of my room. after i write this, i am shutting the computer off, going out to the library to return some books and some DVD's, and then finding a nice quiet place to study and get back to my senior project.

from now on, i think the weekends are going to be minimal technology days for me. yes, that sounds fine. and, i'm going to start book-binding this weekend!

have pleasant week-ends,
stephanie

3 comments:

I Am Sovereign said...

Hey Stephanie,
Thanks for commenting. As I read this, I realized how it is the same way for me. I've even gotten into the habit of going to sleep with the tv on. Maybe it's time to get a little more peace and quiet in my life.

remaerdyad said...

I had a very pleasent one myself.

One of my close friends here (my fleshy friends dont use computers (hint)) is trying to get setup for craftinesses. So we hopefuly got im setup with a bandsaw table come by yesterdayish... Anyways, he is on about building birdhouses since I met him in the summer down by the most lovely spot near a river. So now, I have these mental areas were I plan on doing some guerila birdhouse erecting.

Of course you big shot living-large-in-LA'ers with your fancy movies and cars/celfones and TV and computers and proly suntaning and grr wouldnt understand the plight of wrens and chickadees and finches in subzero clim (-;

Am I jealous of your vie nuveaux?

PS My rule of thumb, which I did a tiny research on, is that if you dont do anything on a computer, including DL's and such, over roughly teh same length of time it takes to watch a feature length movie, it is wise to turn it off, from a power consumption and ecological position (the boot process taking a lot of power). A old 2600 pal disputes this with me, but he is too busy with his degree and job in comp-sci to chat it out with me anymore )-;

PSS I had a coment I didnt share that I wrote ya on that whole colaboration thingy if ur evr inerested sometime. Certainly wouldnt want to get you in any trubl, though, let alone tie you down any more than you need

Congrats and best wishes for the future, j!ng!

stephan!e lee said...

Sovereign:
yeah, some peace and quiet is nice. falling asleep with the TV on? dangerous! i've been having a string of horribly violent dreams, and i think it has something to do with too much TV in my life.

Daydreamer: guerrilla birdhouses?! sounds exc!ting!

-stef